skinny = HAPPY ?

19.
5'7.
GW: happy and healthy
Beginnings of a tough recovery
I <3 beach and warmth of the sun.
prorecovery

the-lovelyme asked: You're such a brave and smart girl. I'm very encouraged by your efforts and acknowledgement that recovery will be tough, yet continuing in hopes that it will lead you to a better life which I'm positive it will. Stick at it girl!

That means soo much girly! Thanks for the support! I’m always here if you ever need help! 

It disgusts me that everytime I eat I am immediately looking forward to the next meal . I am excited to go to bed so that I can eat everything all over again the next day. What happened to my control! :(

first weight gain

after months of upping my meal plan, I have finally gained weight.  It know its good but its FREAKING me out support please!! I am beginning to fit into old clothes that used to be too big I feel so gross and ugly. Worst thing is, I am still obsessed with food and hungry 24-7 ughhhh is it emotional hunger? Im so confused shit. help someone!! :/

Intake 4/4

B:blueberry protein oatmeal pancakes w/ agave nectar 300
S:vanilla chobani and pink lady apple 200
L: tuna on Sara lee bread
Pb2 on Sara lee bread 300
S: cookie dough Luna protein bar 180
Jamba juice 230
Graham crackers 35
D: homemade pizza and butternut squash soup 400
S:pink lady apple vanilla chobani granola Cheerios 300
Milkshake 80

2030 ugh sooo full need ensure ughhhhh

Therapist made me eat a hugeeeee greasy slimy gross fat slice of people I feel soo gross but am also proud!